There
comes a time when one is so full of thoughts that they direly wish to speak
their mind out. To have a patient listener in such times can be liberating. Contrarily,
it can get really frustrating when one doesn’t get the right person to talk to
in such circumstances.
I
began writing my blog about a year ago seeing it as a nice thing to do before the
start of my masters course in social work. It fascinated me as there was so
much in my mind that I wished to put on paper. This seemed to be the perfect
platform to pour my mind out. This enthusiasm lasted for a week after which it
came to a sudden and complete halt. I stopped writing due to what most would call
laziness. But I think it was my procrastinating mind that kept me off from writing.
It’s a little complicated for me to explain how I see a difference in the two
terms. I have however made an attempt to do so in the paragraphs below.
There
certainly is a difference between a lazy mind and a procrastinating mind. A
lazy mind neither wants to do an assigned task, nor does it wish to take up any
task. But a procrastinating mind delays performing a certain task despite
having chosen to (often voluntarily) perform the task out of its own volition. You
can’t blame one for looking at both of these as the same, but I believe procrastination is a state of mind unlike
laziness which is a state of being. One procrastinates owing to various
‘reasons’, while one’s laziness is based on various ‘grounds’.
Laziness would require a sense of detachment from all wants, but procrastination is caused by anxiety and it tends to amplify this anxiety. A lazy mind is often a happy mind, but a procrastinating mind is often a frustrated mind.
Laziness
requires a strong-willed mind, whereas procrastination is characterized by a weak
willed mind. Laziness is an ideal, procrastination is a problem.
I
too procrastinated, because I was anxious. Anxious about a feeling that I was
not being able to wholly express my thoughts in the right way using the right
words placed in the right sentences. I was being an obsessive perfectionist.
But I now plan to begin writing again in an attempt to put a stop to this
obsessive trait and to feel more content in being able to articulate myself.
Time will tell how successful I will be.
